My heart is crushed...

I just discovered some truths today..and it hurts...so deeply that I just cried and cried...

Someone that I loved for 8years has betrayed and cheated on me.
It's devastating.
The pain has strucked my heart so bad it goes to all my nerves and shaking my entire
soul..

For now...

I call unto the Lord for comfort...and strength..to withstand all these.




pause..




deep pause...



(cried)



(sobs)




I know He has His own mysterious ways of going things around.

It maybe bad, sad and very hurtful on my part..
but I can only proclaim, the Lord has set me FREE!

Yeah!
I may not be able to understand it for now..but in the end I am sure, I'd be thankful
that this has happened to me...

Right now.. all I can do is mourn...cry....be sad...totally down but not out!
I will feel this moment today for I know this shall be my victory tomorrow.

My flesh says, "go out and clubbing..drink..be merry and find someone else!"

But no! I am not going to do any of that at all just because I'm hurt..
(Well, I used to..that's before Jesus has come into my life.)


I still trust in the LORD...for He is my refuge and I will stand tall to His Words.

Like the loss of my father and sister...financial setbacks...and now
a failed-relationship...

I can only say... Thank you Jesus!

Someday, I'm gonna look back on this blog with no regrets but with a smile in my face and peace in my heart..
:)