I just focus on the Cross..

Sometimes I battle with my own thoughts...with my own fears...
What are all these mean?
I don't know.

I just focus on the CROSS..where Jesus is stretching His hands,
with His blood all over Him..all because of me.

My cousin said...

my mama is doing well now. She can walk by her own and her fracture is gone. So, there will be no more second surgery. The doctor has cancelled it.Halleluyah!
I just smile at the news.
I have posted one blog few weeks ago that I have placed the situation of my
mama inside my "getaway box" and have given it to Jesus so I won't worry anymore.
Surely, Jesus has kept His words and promises.

Just today, I have read in one of my forums that I joined in a topic that says"The reason why the Philippines is poor."
Well, it got me to thinking real hard. And asked a lot of whys, trying to figure
things out...
But then again, no answers..except that my spirit has led me to just P R A Y for
my country.
Now, I am taking my "getawaybox" again..
In it, I place my country..along with its leaders and people..

I will pass it to Jesus...so He will heal my land...

A philmugger,baitnicart has posted this scripture...

2 Chronicles 7:14

If my people, which are called by my name, shall humble themselves, and pray, and seek my face, and turn from their wicked ways; then will I hear from heaven, and will forgive their sin, and will heal their land.

No matter

how difficult my situation right now..I could only look unto God.

It's just awesome when I am in this state...I'd still want Him..longed for His words and just be with Him.

Is it this called the "VICTORY" of life? I don't know yet.

Yes, my mama is back again in the hospital. My bill is up to 49k excluding the would-be maintaining meds that would soon occur. My mama is now stuck in the hospital. My friends could only shake their heads.

I predict, it would be like this for the rest of the week, or even months or year..It will never stop...

So what I shall do?

Have self-pity, mourn and stress myself out to death? Will it benefit me if I stay this way in the first place?

Shall I blame and scold God again for letting these things happen to me?
Curse HIm?
Runaway?
Become an atheist?

I don't think so.
I may feel a bit shaken...
...sometimes I feel my heart stopped from beating..
my feet goes numb..my thoughts go blank..BUT...

It cannot stay long. It won't stay long! In Jesus name!

BECAUSE...God loves me..and once I start to feel that amazing love deep within me..
I am on the right track...:)

Do I feel stupid in believing this way?
Then, let me ask you.. Who would you want to believe?

Heaven and earth can pass away..
God's words will never pass away.
He endures till the end,.
I have... what God says I have,
I am... God says I am.
God said it...
That settles it.