Anger Management..

What would you do if you trusted someone you don't know so well
and betrayed your trust?

Well, it just happened to me.

And it just got me so furious and disappointed as hell!

People can deceive you in a lot of ways. It's like a trap.
You will never know that it's there unless you're standing right on top
of it.

Sucks!

What I did in my own effort?

With all my might, I tried to get hold of that person..
Sms,phone calls,email but to no avail. He doesn't seem to care at all.
Woow! it's like stabbing me in front. Digging holes deep in my heart.

I really thought 'this person' is a good man. True to his words..so I just
trusted him just like that.

But then again..I guess God is the only one who keeps His words for us
and would never betray us.

If you are caught unaware..humans can really petrify you.

Good thing, Jesus is in me. I now know what to do and how to deal with
all these.

Yes, it may hurt a bit but it CANNOT stay that long.

For I believe I have an Almighty God who can deal with it
and I know His ways are the best!

So just last night, before dozing off, I imagined my "Getaway box" .
It is as pure white as snow, glowing.

Just like what I did to my mom's problem and my family, I put "that person" and the situation inside the box...

Yes, it hurts to let go..but I have no other choice. I cannot do anything
about it anymore. So , I'm giving it to God.


So I have put that person and the whole situation inside the glowing box..
closed it gently..

Right in front of me..there's Jesus, stretching His arms wide.

I give my "Getaway Box" to Jesus...that means, He is in control now.

Jesus then, gladly took my box and smiled at me..

Then I dozed off...


The next morning...

Just this morning...I feel a very light feeling inside of me..
My anger to that person has somewhat vanished..
I couldn't even remember the feeling anymore..

Just wow!

Now, I leave everything behind.

I have a brand new day..

I am meant to live a brand new day because that's part of my
inheritance from God.

It's just amazing to live this way!

Will keep you posted...

NO!!! It cannot be..

I just posted a blog awhile ago saying that I have another battle to face.
Just now, my spirit is shouting right
in front of my face telling me "NO! Your battle is finished!
It is finished when Jesus said so when He was in the cross!"

Wow! What a revelation! Thank you Jesus!

He spoke to me through Kenneth Hagin's book Speak To Your Mountain..
right head on these lines...

"In the New Testament, we fight a spiritual battle with spiritual giants.
We don't fight or wrestle against flesh and blood, but against
the principalities and powers (Eph.6:12)

Under the New Covenant, our spiritual giants are defeated foes.
However, we still have to stand in Jesus' victory over Satan
in order to possess the land that belongs to us in Christ."

Amazing!

The devil is so pathetic..

My mama is back at home now...Praise God!
I cannot say a word..
I cannot say if the battle is over either .
For now, there's another war that I'm gonna have to face -- My Finances.

Lately, my finances are dwindling. My bank account is zero.
I have no more savings..I have so many bills to pay, hospital bills,
doc's, house got pawned, mama's maintaining meds, I owned some of my friends some cash.
God, when will I stop?


Not only that, I'm having some kind of ear infection which has prevented me from hearing God's Words from my ipod lately. Just sucks!


Sooo pathetic, Isn't it?

For sure, the devil is having a grand party right now.

All I can say?

Well, let him enjoy for awhile...