A close book..

Another chapter of my life has ended.
Now, I take it as a CLOSED BOOK.
No more expressing bad and hurtful words.
Just come to live each day.

I may still think about it from time to time,sigh!

pause.

Well, it's just normal anyways.
But I'd get over with it real soon. I know..with JESUS help.

In this world, one can deal stuffs like these, like failed relationships,
past hurt, broken heart, depression and madness as if they are meant to live
this way forever . If they can't take it anymore,they runaway,consult a psychiatrist,take drugs, alcohol and pills then sadly, messed up their lives even more.

Some can just pretend that they are well and work things out again and again.
Like going around in circles.


But not me..

I would feel all these pains and emotional turmoil right now..
Give myself a lot of thought..Experience the whole thing maybe for days or weeks
but NOT FOREVER.

Because JESUS doesn't want me to live this way. He wants to give me LIFE!
He came and thru His blood, I am set free!

Thank you Jesus! For claiming me as your own.
Now, I don't have to be so lost again..
I will rest in You..no matter what happens..

My outside world maybe shaking and as this thing happens
I still shout...

JESUS is my comforter! I shall LIVE again!!!

Emotionally tortured..

It's been days now that I have suffered and been tortured emotionally.

I cannot go on and live like this. It's sickening and I know God doesn't
want me to live this way.

For several times, I tried , on my own effort,to come and understand
the whole situation, be a friend to the person and all, deal the situation
normally, accept that it happened, forget the past..move on!

But I failed.

I can only feel so much pain, anger and madness deep within me.

Being cheated on really sucks big time!

I thought of my pride, my ego, much more to "my self" all the time!
Yeah, Am I getting too selfish?

Maybe I am.

And it really sucks the spirit out of you..

I tried with all my might and power to be sane, understanding
and be forgiving...

...but I cannot.

Now, I live it all to God.

So, now...I come to take my "Getaway box"...

I put in my "Getaway Box" that person and all the feelings, bad and evil thoughts,
remorse, hatred, deception,madness and our memories in it.

(Deep sigh)



There you go!

No need to take pills. Just a little creativity with God will do. Lolx!

I now bind this whole situation to go and be cast out unto the sea, setting me free!
This will be over soon! No, I mean RIGHT NOW as I'm typing this!
I pray, in J E S U S name!
AMEN!