I am hurting...

I'm hurting today...my past and my present is hurting me again..

But I shall not let this moment come to pass without teaching me
a lesson...or a revelation.

pause.

Tears filled my heart last night as the pain is trying to crush me down...

Look at me.
I am focusing on "myself" again..
What shall this moment make of me?

I say, NOTHING BUT DEPRESSION. AND FRUSTRATIONS..

It's true ,
when you think so much of the "I", "myself", "my pains", "my heartbreaks"
it doesn't give you anything but PAIN. There's so much darkness in it.

Right now, as I feel all these in me. Let me share with you the video
I created for Jesus few months back. Watching this eases my pain..because
in here I am reminded of Jesus taking all my pains and burdens when He was crucified
2000 years ago..
Stay on for the last part where I have used The Passion of Christ photos.
It's my most fave part.

It's about Him...

Everytime I feel depress or sad about something or over a situation.
I just listen to God's songs...
While hearing them...a realisation takes place.

It's not about my heartaches, pains,hatred over someone
and struggles in life that matter anymore...

It's Him.. It's Him on the cross.

Yeah , it's just HIm...

As I keep thinking of it that way...feeling of Peace fills my soul.
PEACE that no one in this world can fathom..

It's just beautiful..
And I wana do it all over again.