I heard a lot of suicide news lately.
Tsk!
I wish I could help those people in some possible ways
that I can.
Perhaps, sharing words of wisdom based on the Truths
that I know..like on this blog.
Well, I could only wish for that.
Because , by nature, humans are stubborn.
And we have this attitude of not really giving up so easily unless
we get to the end of our rope causing us frustrations, depressions , stress.
Then there goes suicide.
I don't want to make it sound so melodramatic.
But this blog has recorded the greatest pains and fears of my life.
Like any others, I, too was confused. Depressed.Frustrated.
Lost. Rejected. Financially down. Battling for my health.
Losing my breath.
Until now, my financial and career status have not levelled up compared
to some of my friends and colleagues that I know.
My mom is just renting a small room in our province , with a very patient
friend who's been taking of her for a year now. ( I'm blessed on that)
I have no stable savings ...my bank always reaches to up 0 ( ends up to negative
sometimes) and goes back to normal until I get my salary back for a month.
I don't own my own house. I have no property.No car.
I only have JESUS!
Now, you got me on that.
Can you hear me complain?
No.
I cannot complain.
Because I have JESUS!!!
For me, living in this world is not about all my pains,struggles and hurts..
it's all about HIM!
If I continue to live in fears and stress and be controlled in this world. i'd surely die.
But JESUS is the LIFE!
He is the only WAY, The TRUTH and the LIFE!
What about you?
Are there things that are troubling you? Stressing you out until you want to
pull that trigger off your head and lost your soul?
Humans as we are, naturally, we always cater to our own woes and complaints about life.
And then we blame Life why we get to have one and just wished we were dead.
Pathetic way of living , right?
I used to think that way, too.
There was this saddest part of my life where, I questioned God,
"Why He allowed me to be born in this world just to suffer"
I felt life sucked that everytime I always ended up waking up on the wrong side of the bed.
Finding no meaning for everything.
I can say, I almost reached the end of my rope.
Good thing, little prayers here and there have sustained me.
So even when I thought of taking my own life. It was filtered with prayers.
He has kept me well!
*I tell you, don't underestimate little thoughts of you talking to Him.
It does wonders than going to church kneeling all day and say "halleluyah, halleluyah!
But deep in your heart, you don't really mean it.
Maybe, just a show off or something for whatever.
for God knows what's in your heart and when you are sincere.
To sum up.
whatever's making you struggle and hard to breathe
until you fall out of your head at this moment.
I can only say come to Jesus.
Talk to Him like a child does who is sooo lost and doesn't know what to do anymore
but cry.
Come to Jesus.
He has given me LIFE..
He will do the same to you because He loves you so.
Don't take anti-depressants.
Take Jesus!
Don't go to a psychiatrist.
Consult to Jesus!
Yeah!
Just JESUS!
(Good saturday morning everyone. There's a purpose of me being stuck here in my office on a great saturday morning,.
Now I know. )