NO!!! It cannot be..

I just posted a blog awhile ago saying that I have another battle to face.
Just now, my spirit is shouting right
in front of my face telling me "NO! Your battle is finished!
It is finished when Jesus said so when He was in the cross!"

Wow! What a revelation! Thank you Jesus!

He spoke to me through Kenneth Hagin's book Speak To Your Mountain..
right head on these lines...

"In the New Testament, we fight a spiritual battle with spiritual giants.
We don't fight or wrestle against flesh and blood, but against
the principalities and powers (Eph.6:12)

Under the New Covenant, our spiritual giants are defeated foes.
However, we still have to stand in Jesus' victory over Satan
in order to possess the land that belongs to us in Christ."

Amazing!

The devil is so pathetic..

My mama is back at home now...Praise God!
I cannot say a word..
I cannot say if the battle is over either .
For now, there's another war that I'm gonna have to face -- My Finances.

Lately, my finances are dwindling. My bank account is zero.
I have no more savings..I have so many bills to pay, hospital bills,
doc's, house got pawned, mama's maintaining meds, I owned some of my friends some cash.
God, when will I stop?


Not only that, I'm having some kind of ear infection which has prevented me from hearing God's Words from my ipod lately. Just sucks!


Sooo pathetic, Isn't it?

For sure, the devil is having a grand party right now.

All I can say?

Well, let him enjoy for awhile...

Sometimes the rivers of life seem

to come plunging down upon us, and they seem to try to suck us underneath and destroy us in their swift current...

Sometimes we're left in utter despair wondering whether we should give up and quit,
or just exactly what we should do..

But in God, you don't ever need to give up.
If you quit, you have nothing to gain.
But if you keep on going and keep on standing on God's Word in faith,
you have everything to gain.

Source: Speak To Your Mountain
by Kenneth Hagin

God didn't leave me without help

or comfort in this life.

The Lord Himself promised to give me grace in every situation.
His grace is sufficient to sustain me through every problem and trial.
And He also promised me the victory in every situation (1 Cor 15:57)

God already told me in His Word

that He would fight my battles for me...
The Word said that the battle is not mine, but it belongs to the Lord (2 Chron. 20:17)

In the midst of the battle, I know that the Lord is working things out for me..

No matter

how difficult my situation right now..I could only look unto God.

It's just awesome when I am in this state...I'd still want Him..longed for His words and just be with Him.

Is it this called the "VICTORY" of life? I don't know yet.

Yes, my mama is back again in the hospital. My bill is up to 49k excluding the would-be maintaining meds that would soon occur. My mama is now stuck in the hospital. My friends could only shake their heads.

I predict, it would be like this for the rest of the week, or even months or year..It will never stop...

So what I shall do?

Have self-pity, mourn and stress myself out to death? Will it benefit me if I stay this way in the first place?

Shall I blame and scold God again for letting these things happen to me?
Curse HIm?
Runaway?
Become an atheist?

I don't think so.
I may feel a bit shaken...
...sometimes I feel my heart stopped from beating..
my feet goes numb..my thoughts go blank..BUT...

It cannot stay long. It won't stay long! In Jesus name!

BECAUSE...God loves me..and once I start to feel that amazing love deep within me..
I am on the right track...:)

Do I feel stupid in believing this way?
Then, let me ask you.. Who would you want to believe?

"When we run into a test or trial in our own lives,

we need to remember to speak faith-filled words --- words filled with God-kind of faith.
"I refuse to fear! God has already redeemed me from the hand of the enemy! Satan's defense has departed from him. If I'll just trust God, I can possess my promised land!"

Think back to the times when the Lord answered your prayers and delivered you out of trying times and difficult circumstances. Get your mind renewed to God's goodness and great power. Remember the God who is more than enough to meet your every need!"

Source: Speak To Your Mountain
By Kenneth hagin Jr.