Love you Jesus...

Thanks for everything Jesus..

Now, I can finally rest in You..

My mom is back to normal.

She does her own laundry and wants to cook now. Just wow!

My "getaway box" surely worked out just fine. Heheh!

My 8yr failed relationship? Welp, taking one step at a time..

I'm almost getting there.*winks!

I won't fear of what the future holds anymore because God is with me!

Halleluyah!

A close book..

Another chapter of my life has ended.
Now, I take it as a CLOSED BOOK.
No more expressing bad and hurtful words.
Just come to live each day.

I may still think about it from time to time,sigh!

pause.

Well, it's just normal anyways.
But I'd get over with it real soon. I know..with JESUS help.

In this world, one can deal stuffs like these, like failed relationships,
past hurt, broken heart, depression and madness as if they are meant to live
this way forever . If they can't take it anymore,they runaway,consult a psychiatrist,take drugs, alcohol and pills then sadly, messed up their lives even more.

Some can just pretend that they are well and work things out again and again.
Like going around in circles.


But not me..

I would feel all these pains and emotional turmoil right now..
Give myself a lot of thought..Experience the whole thing maybe for days or weeks
but NOT FOREVER.

Because JESUS doesn't want me to live this way. He wants to give me LIFE!
He came and thru His blood, I am set free!

Thank you Jesus! For claiming me as your own.
Now, I don't have to be so lost again..
I will rest in You..no matter what happens..

My outside world maybe shaking and as this thing happens
I still shout...

JESUS is my comforter! I shall LIVE again!!!

Feelin better...

It's a good day today!
Feel so much better now..We have talked it out and hopefully
things will be great!

We have to move on...

I was able to hold down my pride and for once, settled everything
all for JESUS' sake..not mine.

I have put aside my pains and hurt.

Surprisingly, it ended well:)

Cannot say a word.

Yeah! When you trust in Jesus...you can't help but be dumbstrucked! lolx!
Everything happens too fast ...


Some changes may be painful, hurtful and devastating but it's all for good
and brand new things to come!


I feel a thorn has been pulled out of me-- setting me victoriously FREE!!!

Halleluyah!

One thought..

I thought of the situation again ..
and strangely enough these words filled me in...

" Don't look back!"

Whew!

See my "Getaway Box" is working ! hahaha!

I will have a brand new day each day from now on.
And a new cool Life to enjoy with!

Emotionally tortured..

It's been days now that I have suffered and been tortured emotionally.

I cannot go on and live like this. It's sickening and I know God doesn't
want me to live this way.

For several times, I tried , on my own effort,to come and understand
the whole situation, be a friend to the person and all, deal the situation
normally, accept that it happened, forget the past..move on!

But I failed.

I can only feel so much pain, anger and madness deep within me.

Being cheated on really sucks big time!

I thought of my pride, my ego, much more to "my self" all the time!
Yeah, Am I getting too selfish?

Maybe I am.

And it really sucks the spirit out of you..

I tried with all my might and power to be sane, understanding
and be forgiving...

...but I cannot.

Now, I live it all to God.

So, now...I come to take my "Getaway box"...

I put in my "Getaway Box" that person and all the feelings, bad and evil thoughts,
remorse, hatred, deception,madness and our memories in it.

(Deep sigh)



There you go!

No need to take pills. Just a little creativity with God will do. Lolx!

I now bind this whole situation to go and be cast out unto the sea, setting me free!
This will be over soon! No, I mean RIGHT NOW as I'm typing this!
I pray, in J E S U S name!
AMEN!

My heart is crushed...

I just discovered some truths today..and it hurts...so deeply that I just cried and cried...

Someone that I loved for 8years has betrayed and cheated on me.
It's devastating.
The pain has strucked my heart so bad it goes to all my nerves and shaking my entire
soul..

For now...

I call unto the Lord for comfort...and strength..to withstand all these.




pause..




deep pause...



(cried)



(sobs)




I know He has His own mysterious ways of going things around.

It maybe bad, sad and very hurtful on my part..
but I can only proclaim, the Lord has set me FREE!

Yeah!
I may not be able to understand it for now..but in the end I am sure, I'd be thankful
that this has happened to me...

Right now.. all I can do is mourn...cry....be sad...totally down but not out!
I will feel this moment today for I know this shall be my victory tomorrow.

My flesh says, "go out and clubbing..drink..be merry and find someone else!"

But no! I am not going to do any of that at all just because I'm hurt..
(Well, I used to..that's before Jesus has come into my life.)


I still trust in the LORD...for He is my refuge and I will stand tall to His Words.

Like the loss of my father and sister...financial setbacks...and now
a failed-relationship...

I can only say... Thank you Jesus!

Someday, I'm gonna look back on this blog with no regrets but with a smile in my face and peace in my heart..
:)

The One Thing...

Terrorism
Wars
School shootouts
SARS
AIDS
Cyclones
Floods
Tsunamis
Earthquakes
Depression
Sadness
Boredom
Untimely deaths
Bad relationships
.... the list is endless..

I can only look up to Jesus for protection, comfort and peace within
from all these..