As I live...

Pains of all sorts,heartaches,headaches, bodyaches can attack me anytime.
Any day..any moment..

I have no idea where it really come from...
whether it's just my mind,
my thoughts..
my emotions..
my surroundings..

It's weird.

It's getting in my system and makes me wonder why it keeps on coming back.


As I'm typing this, slowly it's breaking me apart...


Sometimes it gets so sickening that I just wana throw up.


Yeah..I'm just keeping a grip on things.

Bearing all these questions ...How long shall I remain this way?

How long shall my pain strike me? Will this never end?

I wana be FREE from all these!

Pause...

Funny how external events can cover up and put a mask on how
I truly feel.

Pathetic huh?

..Somehow..

It's not a question of "where's-the-next-party?" so I can be free
from all these bad emotions and thoughts that keep hanging on
my mind...

Maybe forget about it for awhile till I get
to my "fun" senses back again.


It's not planning where to go next...what to do..
what pills to take or which book to read.


It's a question of "Whom to go to?"

..I'm thankful.

That Jesus has got me..just seeing the CROSS keeps me shut up.
Far from above it all it's not really my heartaches that really
matter in this world anymore...it's Him.




Yeah.. it's just Him.


At thie moment, eventhough I don't feel much of His presence
because I am way too overwhelmed by my pains,heartaches,
sadness,confusions and depression right now..

I know He is there.

He will always be there...for me.

I can keep on shedding tears. Feel and let my confusions go and be that way till the sun goes down.

.. inspite of it all..He is with me..

I believe so.





My assurance?

It's the C R O S S..

Am I crazy? Be it that way.

Let's see where this "craziness" would take me..

I'll just keep resting on Him...

...this time it's FOREVER.

A Fearful Expectation of Judgment vs A Confident Expectation of Good

This is in response to the blog that I wrote on the 18th of May(2007) entitled
"A Typical Christian"

This powerful sermon from Pastor Prince has liberated me from fear of being judged by
others.
Yes, I am a Christian . And I am not perfect.
I still have bad behaviors and habits hidden in me.
Some I couldn't just get rid off easily.

Apparently, non-believers or even fellow Christians
could judge and condemn me naturally,
point a finger at me and would eventually make me feel that
I am not worthy to receive Christ
because I have fallen short...because I did wrong and have sinned.

But that's not how Jesus' ways work.

Now, that I know the truth.
I can just smile and be rested.

Although how dirty and sinful I am right now .I can still come boldly to JESUS!
Because His blood has washed me clean from all my sins!
Jesus died for my sins. He has greatly paid for it.

And why should I continue to lock myself in
the dark when the light has come.

Jesus is the light!

Jesus is my LIGHT!

And no matter what..I'm gona be in that SHADE OF LIGHT FOREVER!

Enjoy the mp3 peepz!

Ben Stein's Remarks from CBS Sunday Morning

I gotta share this with you my dear friends..
The following was written by Ben Stein and recited by him on CBS Sunday Morning
Commentary.

My confession:

I am a Jew, and every single one of my ancestors was Jewish. And it does not bother me even a little bit when people call those beautiful lit up, bejeweled trees, Christmas trees.. I don't feel threatened. I don't feel discriminated against. That's what they are: Christmas trees.

It doesn 't bother me a bit when people say, 'Merry Christmas' to me. I don't think they are slighting me or getting ready to put me in a ghetto. In fact, I kind of like it It shows that we are all brothers and sisters celebrati ng this happy time of year. It doesn't bother me at all that there is a manger scene on display at a key intersection near my beach house in Malibu . If people want a crïeche, it's just as fine with me as is the Menorah a few hundred yards away.

I don't like getting pushed around for being a Jew, and I don't think Christians like getting pushed around for being Christians. I think people who believe in God are sick and tired of getting pushed around, period. I have no idea where the concept came from that America is an explicitly atheist country. I can't find it in the Constitution and I don't like it being shoved down my throat.

Or maybe I can put it another way: where did the idea come from that we should worship celebrities and we aren't allowed to worship God as we understand Him? I guess that's a sign that I'm getting old, too. But there are a lot of us who are wondering where these celebrities came from and where the America we knew went to.

In light of the many jokes we send to one another for a laugh, this is a little different: This is not intended to be a joke; it's not funny, it's intended to get you thinking.

Billy Graham's daughter was interviewed on the Early Show and Jane Clayson asked her 'How could God let something like this happen?' (regarding Katrina) Anne Graham gave an extremely profound and insightful response. She said, 'I believe God is deeply saddened by this, just as we are, but for years we've been telling God to get out of our schools, to get out of our government and to get out of our lives. And being the gentleman He is, I believe He has calmly backed out. How can we expect God to give us His blessing and His protection if we demand He leave us alone?'

In light of recent events... terrorists attack, school shootings, etc. I think it started when Madeleine Murray O'Hare (she was murdered, her body found a few years ago) complained she didn't want prayer in our schools, and we said OK. Then someone said you better not read the Bible in school. The Bible says thou shalt not kill, thou shalt not steal, and love your neighbor as yourself. And we said OK.

Then Dr. Benjamin Spock said we shouldn't spank our children when they misbehave because their little personalities would be warped and we might damage their self-esteem (Dr Spock's son committed suicide). We said an=2 0 expert should know what he's talking about. And we said OK.

Now we're asking ourselves why our children have no conscience, why they don't know right from wrong, and why it doesn't bother them to kill strangers, their classmates, and themselves.

Probably, if we think about it long and hard enough, we can figure it out. I think it has a great deal to do with 'WE REAP WHAT WE SOW.'

Funny how simple it is for people to trash God and then wonder why the world's going to hell Funny how we believe what the newspapers say, but question what the Bible says. Funny how you can send 'jokes' through e-mail and they spread like wildfire but when you start sending messages regarding the Lord, people think twice about sharing. Funny how lewd, crude, vulgar and obscene articles pass freely through cyberspace, but public discussion of God is suppressed in the school and workplace.

Are you laughing yet?

Funny how when you forward this message, you will not send it to many on
your address list because you're not sure what they believe, or what they
will think of you for sending it.

Funny how we can be more worried about what other people think of us than what God thinks of us.

Pass it on if you think it has merit. If not then just discard it... no one will know you did. But, if you discard this thought process, don't sit back and complain about what bad shape the world is in.

My Best Regards, Honestly and respectfully,
Ben Stein

When God Ran

The Value

I want you to read this first. I will leave my comment right after...:)



A well-known speaker started off his seminar by holding up a $20.00 bill. In the room of 200, he asked, "Who would like this $20 bill?" Hands started going up.

He said, "I am going to give this $20 to one of you but first, let me do this." He proceeded to crumple the $20 dollar bill up. He then asked, "Who still wants it?" Still the hands were up in the air. "Well", he replied, "What if I do this?" And he dropped it on the ground and started to grind it into the floor with his shoe. He picked it up, now crumpled and dirty. "Now who still wants it?" Still the hands went into the air. "My friends, we have all learned a very valuable lesson", he said, "No matter what I did to the money, you still wanted it because it did not decrease in value. It was still worth $20.

Many times in our lives, we are dropped, crumpled, and ground into the dirt by the decisions we make and the circumstances that come our way. We feel as though we are worthless. But no matter what has happened or what will happen, you will never lose your value. Dirty or clean, crumpled or finely creased, you are still priceless.... and especially to those who love you.

The worth of our lives comes not in what we do or whom we know, but by WHO WE ARE.

"You are special - Don't EVER forget it."



Here's what I thought of this..

Many a times I have asked and questioned my worth.
Worldly as it seems, I used to base it on the things that I have.
The gadgets that I own.
The money that I have in the bank.
My career.
My friends.

If everything's doing well on any of that area, I'm good.
I can keep my head up high and walk tall.

BUT if all or any of it goes out to nothing..I'll be like a dead person walking.
No life and full of shame... W O R T H L E S S..

Sometimes I get so crumpled too..with all the struggles and undefeated
bad circumstances in my life.

Sad moments..depression striking out from nowhere.
...it just happens like that. Poking you.



Well, that was me a year ago and many years back.
So pathetic ha?


Now, I don't need to question my worth again.
Because my worth has been proven when Jesus shed His blood for me
and allowed Himself to be crucified and die in the Calvary.

Yeah!

You heard me.. that's all for me!
Jesus did it all for me.

Amazing isn't it?

That truth alone has kept my mouth shut.

For loooong , loooong years of questioning God, blaming Him for what's happening in my life, aiming the bullets on Him for whatever I thought that was worth. I could just
stop and stare at Him right now..and say..what was wrong with me?


Jesus' blood is enough proof that I'm valuable to God.
That He loves me so much He gave up His only Son just to spare me from
all my sins.

I could just dance rock n roll to that great message!

Yes! Suddenly, I have stopped judging God based on my circumstances.
Whatever happens ...good or bad...like right now,me and my mama doesn't have
our own place to live in back in our province...my finances are dwindling...got no
money in the bank, no savings yet and anything.

I'd still praise Him! Yeaaah! I'd still want Him! Because He is a good God
and I believe in His words...

I shall praise Him

F O R E V E R!

Very Touching Birdie Love Story (sobs!)

Even birds can love this much.
I got this email from my boss and it nearly got me into tears.It's so touching.
It is indeed devastating and depressing to lose someone you love so much.

I have been there.

BUT...

in my case..I was just too blessed enough to withstand all that.
Because...
J E S U S was with me...comforting me all the time...wiping all my tears...
He knows that though I loved them all...I don't want go through all that
negative and depressing state all over again.It has to stop!

For Jesus wants me to have LIFE and wants me move on!

I know for sure, Jesus has comforted this little birdie on his sorrow
and like me..have moved on..:)


read on and prepare a tissue..:(

Here his mate is injured and the condition is appalling




















Here he brings her food and attend to her with love and compassion
















Brings her food but shocked with her death and try to move her

















He is aware that his sweetheart is dead and will not come to him again he cries with adoring love

















Stand beside her and scream saddened of her death















Finally aware that she would not return to him and she has departed, stands beside her body, sad and sorrow



Photos of two birds are said to have been taken in the Republic of Ukraine Where the bird is trying to save his mate. Millions of people cry after watching this picture in America and Europe
It is said that the photographer sold these picture for a nominal price to the most famo us news paper in France. And all the copies of that news paper were sold out on the day of publishing these pictures

Keep this BELL ringing!