My Wallpaper Of The Day

God just keeps reminding me to hold fast on my FAITH.
In this life, as I go along and enjoy my Christian adventure,
I have learned that it's not my decisions,my goals,my dreams,
my being sad at the moment, contemplating on how bad my attitude is
or fearing how worsr that I'll become,etc that really matter the most.

it's my FAITH in Him.

That FAITH can make wonders in your life as I did with mine.

You may feel so lost and rejected in this world
but with that FAITH stuck in you makes a lot of difference.

It changes everything.

It's like magic...only to come for real and is lasting.

Thanks Sandra..

Hi, Sandra, let me quote you on this.
"We're lucky aren't we, you and me. We have Jesus to depend on for everything. Dinx, Jesus didn't come down to save a perfect world, the perfect person, but He came because of the sinners, the imperfect world, the imperfect person.
We're all like the rough diamond, to be able to shine brilliantly someday in the future, we need to get chiseled and cut (facets) and finally to be polished before we are classify as a diamond. So every cut, every chisel is only going to be good for us. We are going to SHINE someday when we stand before Him. Brilliantly! Isn't that just magnificent, to be able to stand with Him in His kingdom.
Stay strong child,"

Yeah! We are so blessed to have Jesus. He surely knows there's no end to all
the crap in this mad, fallen world. He knows that as we live in it..without a
"SHepherd" to guide us. We are totally lost.

Wars, terrorisms, earthquakes,tsunamis, diseases of any kind could strike the world anytime.
Like a thief in the night.
And it's not gona end either. There's really no end to it..(till He comes down again)

I used to live in that FEAR.

BUt now...my mind changed.

It changed when I shifted my focus on Jesus.

Jesus tells me I can only be free from all these fears when
I rest in Him.

It's good thing to know that.

Now, I'm FREE!

It's great to know inspite of the mad world has come to offer us, we can still shine
like a diamond.

Yes! Jesus blood has perfected us..like gold.

Inspite of everything that I have done, my bad thoughts and feelings to
anyone or anything.. I am still perfect with Him.

Everytime I would think about it. It just makes me feel good.

And wants to celebrate.

Thanks for dropping by Sandra.

I know I'm not alone in this feat.

My weakness.My strength.

2 Corinthians 12:9-10 "But he said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me. That is why, for Christ's sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong."

Each time I feel so weak and frustrated over something,
that feeling would really sink deep into me...
like massively digging a hole.

Like a dagger,
...piercing thru my heart..
.. and then it just freezes me.
Leaving me a feeling of remorse, shame and unworthiness.

Exposing my weaknesses would mean laying down my cards.
My imperfections.

I have a lot of weaknesses in me. If I focus on them detail by detail,
one by one...maybe it would take a lifetime. Definitely it would.

The world and other preachers would tell you to look at them so bad
that you'd puke. You don't even want to look at yourself in the mirror
anymore. Because by then , you'd get sick of "you"
and then would just decide to take on that mask and eventually stay away from God.

Good thing Jesus doesn't think that way.
Jesus doesn't want us to look wrongly in our imperfections and weaknesses.
Instead, He wants us to have a revelation in it. And get smart.

I consider my frustrations as one of my weaknesses.
Each time that happens I could just look onto Jesus and say to Him,
"where would I be without you, Jesus? You are my strength.
Thank you for coming for me. "

As I live...

Pains of all sorts,heartaches,headaches, bodyaches can attack me anytime.
Any day..any moment..

I have no idea where it really come from...
whether it's just my mind,
my thoughts..
my emotions..
my surroundings..

It's weird.

It's getting in my system and makes me wonder why it keeps on coming back.


As I'm typing this, slowly it's breaking me apart...


Sometimes it gets so sickening that I just wana throw up.


Yeah..I'm just keeping a grip on things.

Bearing all these questions ...How long shall I remain this way?

How long shall my pain strike me? Will this never end?

I wana be FREE from all these!

Pause...

Funny how external events can cover up and put a mask on how
I truly feel.

Pathetic huh?

..Somehow..

It's not a question of "where's-the-next-party?" so I can be free
from all these bad emotions and thoughts that keep hanging on
my mind...

Maybe forget about it for awhile till I get
to my "fun" senses back again.


It's not planning where to go next...what to do..
what pills to take or which book to read.


It's a question of "Whom to go to?"

..I'm thankful.

That Jesus has got me..just seeing the CROSS keeps me shut up.
Far from above it all it's not really my heartaches that really
matter in this world anymore...it's Him.




Yeah.. it's just Him.


At thie moment, eventhough I don't feel much of His presence
because I am way too overwhelmed by my pains,heartaches,
sadness,confusions and depression right now..

I know He is there.

He will always be there...for me.

I can keep on shedding tears. Feel and let my confusions go and be that way till the sun goes down.

.. inspite of it all..He is with me..

I believe so.





My assurance?

It's the C R O S S..

Am I crazy? Be it that way.

Let's see where this "craziness" would take me..

I'll just keep resting on Him...

...this time it's FOREVER.

A Fearful Expectation of Judgment vs A Confident Expectation of Good

This is in response to the blog that I wrote on the 18th of May(2007) entitled
"A Typical Christian"

This powerful sermon from Pastor Prince has liberated me from fear of being judged by
others.
Yes, I am a Christian . And I am not perfect.
I still have bad behaviors and habits hidden in me.
Some I couldn't just get rid off easily.

Apparently, non-believers or even fellow Christians
could judge and condemn me naturally,
point a finger at me and would eventually make me feel that
I am not worthy to receive Christ
because I have fallen short...because I did wrong and have sinned.

But that's not how Jesus' ways work.

Now, that I know the truth.
I can just smile and be rested.

Although how dirty and sinful I am right now .I can still come boldly to JESUS!
Because His blood has washed me clean from all my sins!
Jesus died for my sins. He has greatly paid for it.

And why should I continue to lock myself in
the dark when the light has come.

Jesus is the light!

Jesus is my LIGHT!

And no matter what..I'm gona be in that SHADE OF LIGHT FOREVER!

Enjoy the mp3 peepz!

Ben Stein's Remarks from CBS Sunday Morning

I gotta share this with you my dear friends..
The following was written by Ben Stein and recited by him on CBS Sunday Morning
Commentary.

My confession:

I am a Jew, and every single one of my ancestors was Jewish. And it does not bother me even a little bit when people call those beautiful lit up, bejeweled trees, Christmas trees.. I don't feel threatened. I don't feel discriminated against. That's what they are: Christmas trees.

It doesn 't bother me a bit when people say, 'Merry Christmas' to me. I don't think they are slighting me or getting ready to put me in a ghetto. In fact, I kind of like it It shows that we are all brothers and sisters celebrati ng this happy time of year. It doesn't bother me at all that there is a manger scene on display at a key intersection near my beach house in Malibu . If people want a crïeche, it's just as fine with me as is the Menorah a few hundred yards away.

I don't like getting pushed around for being a Jew, and I don't think Christians like getting pushed around for being Christians. I think people who believe in God are sick and tired of getting pushed around, period. I have no idea where the concept came from that America is an explicitly atheist country. I can't find it in the Constitution and I don't like it being shoved down my throat.

Or maybe I can put it another way: where did the idea come from that we should worship celebrities and we aren't allowed to worship God as we understand Him? I guess that's a sign that I'm getting old, too. But there are a lot of us who are wondering where these celebrities came from and where the America we knew went to.

In light of the many jokes we send to one another for a laugh, this is a little different: This is not intended to be a joke; it's not funny, it's intended to get you thinking.

Billy Graham's daughter was interviewed on the Early Show and Jane Clayson asked her 'How could God let something like this happen?' (regarding Katrina) Anne Graham gave an extremely profound and insightful response. She said, 'I believe God is deeply saddened by this, just as we are, but for years we've been telling God to get out of our schools, to get out of our government and to get out of our lives. And being the gentleman He is, I believe He has calmly backed out. How can we expect God to give us His blessing and His protection if we demand He leave us alone?'

In light of recent events... terrorists attack, school shootings, etc. I think it started when Madeleine Murray O'Hare (she was murdered, her body found a few years ago) complained she didn't want prayer in our schools, and we said OK. Then someone said you better not read the Bible in school. The Bible says thou shalt not kill, thou shalt not steal, and love your neighbor as yourself. And we said OK.

Then Dr. Benjamin Spock said we shouldn't spank our children when they misbehave because their little personalities would be warped and we might damage their self-esteem (Dr Spock's son committed suicide). We said an=2 0 expert should know what he's talking about. And we said OK.

Now we're asking ourselves why our children have no conscience, why they don't know right from wrong, and why it doesn't bother them to kill strangers, their classmates, and themselves.

Probably, if we think about it long and hard enough, we can figure it out. I think it has a great deal to do with 'WE REAP WHAT WE SOW.'

Funny how simple it is for people to trash God and then wonder why the world's going to hell Funny how we believe what the newspapers say, but question what the Bible says. Funny how you can send 'jokes' through e-mail and they spread like wildfire but when you start sending messages regarding the Lord, people think twice about sharing. Funny how lewd, crude, vulgar and obscene articles pass freely through cyberspace, but public discussion of God is suppressed in the school and workplace.

Are you laughing yet?

Funny how when you forward this message, you will not send it to many on
your address list because you're not sure what they believe, or what they
will think of you for sending it.

Funny how we can be more worried about what other people think of us than what God thinks of us.

Pass it on if you think it has merit. If not then just discard it... no one will know you did. But, if you discard this thought process, don't sit back and complain about what bad shape the world is in.

My Best Regards, Honestly and respectfully,
Ben Stein

When God Ran