Of course I wanted lots of toys to play around with.(which most of them were only dreams because my parents couldn't afford them. Lolx)
As years went by with age and adulthood, my wants and needs deliberately changed unto the ever-changing, complicated, unsatisfied world.
Variety of wants/needs from my career, demands in my relationship, friends and loved ones. Expectations that always failed. All wrapped up in one system called "worldly life."
Back then, I was spiritually bankrupt. I knew I was breathing in , out but that was it.
Everything was empty.
Suddenly these things
had gotten into me.
I thought it was normal to stay happy for just a little while, and when it's over, it's time to get sad, depressed, frustrated and all. Everyone was accepting it naturally. It's part of being human, they say. If you don't feel it, then you are not human .you are maybe a robot. Ahahah!
Knowing not the truth. Ok I admit, I believe that crap for years!
Years went by....
problems, depression, frustrations , unhappiness, brokenheart dominated
my entire being. It was a cycle that made me
almost choked life out of it. Got really bored with life.
Really.
One time,
I poked myself and said,
"Hey Do I ever have a soul to keep??"
Tired of referring to man for the answers, for the last time I asked God,
"God!!! Is this my purpose on earth? To cry, sigh, feel the pain, get really bored, have a brokenheart now and then, be hurt???"
(pause. )
You see,
maybe God heard my cry back then.
Forward to Now?
All I can say is that,
I feel soooooo awesome for the past 3 years. And each day it just keep getting more exciting!
I don't know what it is.
Something just hit me with joy that is sooooo beautiful cuz it's coming from the inside that lasts and not from external events (which are temporary).
And I've concluded,
the answer to my depressing thoughts is one person.
And his name is
JESUS.
Yessssss!
Ohhhh what a beautiful name!
J*E*S*U*S....
Boy I'm so glad God led me to Him. Thank you to Pastor Joseph Prince Ministry!
Just so you know, at first, it wasn't that easy because I was actually making it so hard.
So hard to believe that all you gotta do to have this awesome life that I'm having right now
is just to say, "YES!" to Jesus!
I know that you know. But let's move on.
I just need to share with you, that contrary to what the world believes in about having lots of $$$ , awesome cars, power, holidays, etc can give you happiness is true.
It's good to have those but it's bad when you put your trust and source of happiness in it because the fact is, it's only TEMPORARY.
You might have a bit of security BUT it's TEMPORARY.
When the time comes that it's eating you all
up, and it just shuts down on you, you're gona dig holes along with it too.
Me? Though I need some doughs, I am confirmed not to get swayed by it. That's why I've started to tithe. (Will post a thread on tithing soon.)
You see, I may have one of the best gadgets in the world like the ipad or iphone or macs , but these things are just "things".
You can use them as a tool but never expect it to be your source of joy or peace. Same goes to your relationships. Don't expect or demand from them because people fail.
These are shaky grounds and they can't satisfy your soul....
Only Jesus can satisfy your soul.
Only in Jesus you can expect much and take for more.
Only in Jesus you can have lasting peace and joy.
Don't aim to be happy.
Aim to be joyful. Because happiness depends in the happ-enings around you. While joy is within.
Friends, start to make Jesus as your source of wisdom and what comes after that is pure, unshakeable and
eternal peace no matter what the circumstance are. :)
I am not there yet, but it's happening.
Let me say it again...:)
When Jesus is in you,
You are standing on a solid, unshakeable ground!
This is what you call pure VICTORY!
Thank you Jesus!
Halleluyaaaaah!!
"Delight yourself in the LORD and he will give you the desires of your heart."
Psalm 37:4
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