Always believe that God is on your side. No matter what. Even in your imperfections, failures. He will always be with you.
He will never leave you.
That's how much He loves you so.
Everytime you get caught in your mixed, , negative, confused emotions. Switch your thoughts on His promises "For I know my plans for you, plans to prosper you and not to harm you."
(Jeremiah 29:11) because He always wants the best for you. Meditate on this beautiful verse.
See Him hugging you. And holding unto you.
At the end of the day, thank Him by not leaving you alone.
Just believe!